I like music. I don't get metal.

I love him. I don't love his music.

I'm a musician, I've come to like all kinds of music- you name it- I probably do listen to it, if not, appreciate it- pop, rock, jazz, country, classical, rap, hip hop, R&B... 

but metal. METAL?!

I never quite understood the art behind metal. I just don't hear anything when I listen to metal music... it's just guitars, bass and drums slamming together and the occasional scream into the microphone... which by the way, is also coarse and loud that I don't even HEAR the message they are trying to get across. 

I have yet to hear a good metal song that I will like. Until then, sorry hardcore metal fans... you're just not my cup of tea.

And if all hope is lost...

We all have those days where everything just goes wrong, not like a coffee spill on your favourite shirt, but more along the lines of accidentally dropping your phone into the toilet while you're in a rush to get to the most important meeting of your life, or losing your mom's diamond ring which has been in the family for 15 generations, or having 10 bills come all at once when you've just been fired from your job. THOSE are the days I'm talking about.

Yesterday, I didn't know what happened, but when I turned on my laptop and tried to log into my user, I got an error. I couldn't access my own laptop! I have no guest or other users available, only my very own administrative account. The night before, I had just finished an assignment and sent it off to my prof. Thank goodness for that.

In a desperate attempt, I googled some feasible solution and ended up deleting my user account in order to access the computer. That meant all of my documents, lecture recordings, music and emails were completely gone. GONE. Afterwards, I tried to do damage control by searching for software to recover deleted files. No luck. All the lecture recordings that I hadn't listened to yet are completely gone. How am I going to study for this week's midterms?

I didn't do anything wrong, why is this happening to me?

So as of now, I've completely reformatted the computer, which increases my chances of never recovering anything back again, but at least it might get rid of the problem that caused all this. I still don't know WHY I wasn't able to log into my user profile today, I've never encountered that in all my years of technology problems and trust me... I've had many of them and to the oddest as well.

Lyrics:

The storm is coming but I don't mind
People are dying, I close my blinds

All that I know is I'm breathing now

I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

I died a little inside... everything that I had worked so hard for this year is gone. I told myself that this year has GOT TO BE the year I turn everything around and succeed. I can't believe that I lost before I even started the race. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?!

I don't know many students in my classes, I can't just ask for recordings and notes. I don't know what to do. I'm not feeling very optimistic at the very moment. This entire laptop thing... has just fore-casted failure in a snowball-effect. How am I supposed to catch up now? How am I supposed to study for anything now? How am I supposed to sleep at night knowing that I had weeks to listen to those lecture recordings and I didn't and now they're all gone and unsalvageable?

Little Miss Obsessive

Little Miss Obsessive - Ashlee Simpson

Lyrics:

Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)
Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)

Am I the reason why you tossed and turned last night?
Everything was such a blur, it didn't come out right.
All of the sudden it's cold and we're falling apart.
No this can't be, please don't leave me alone in the dark.

Chorus:
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, I'm not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.

Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)
Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)

I've never been a fan of long good-byes.
I'm at the finish line and you're just way too far behind.
In the morning I got in a fight with myself, I got the bruises to prove it.
Then I swallowed your words and spit them right back out.

Chorus:
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, Aim not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.

Bridge:
No!
It's like a fairy tale without a happy ending (happy ending)
But then again maybe we are just pretending.
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Tell me that you care.

And I guess we're really over, but come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it. Oh!

Little miss, little miss, little miss, little miss obsessive.
Little miss, little miss, little miss, little miss obsessive.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, I'm not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it

Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)
Woah, woah, woah. (That side of your bed is still mine)

The lyrics of this song are amazingly GOOD! I love the part where the male voice goes

That side of your bed is still mine.

Her second verse is really good. I think a lot of people can connect to the lines:

I've never been a fan of long good-byes.

I'm at the finish line and you're just way too far behind.

In the morning I got in a fight with myself, I got the bruises to prove it.

Then I swallowed your words and spit them right back out.

Yeah, I know this song is rather old... I don't know why I didn't hear this on the radio back then... maybe because 2008 was the year I started university and I didn't freaking own a RADIO!!! How sad was that? But today I suddenly heard the song Pieces of Me in my head by Ashlee Simpson, I remember being obsessed with that song, and so I thought, "Yo. Where -IS- Ashlee?" The last I heard of her was her being engaged with Pete? Or something like that. So I wikipedia-ed her and realized she had an album out in 2008 called Bittersweet World. I only checked out her two promoted songs on that album and I liked this one a lot more. She has an album coming out... or she's working on her fourth album? ABOUT TIME! As much as I don't think she can sing live at all... her voice sounds nice in CDs.

She was so big when I was in high school. She should come back soon.