To the new me... I mean... Haircut.

Regular daily blogging... here we go:

Jan 13th

Alysha, my roommate, wanted to come with me to class. I told her I had class at 6 and I was going to take a nap. It was around 2 at the time and I was so exhausted from the night before. I set my alarm but little did I know that the volume was set down low so I didn't hear it and I slept through it! I woke up at 6:40 and like ran to class with her. I was kind of upset that she didn't even wake me up, like what the hell is wrong with her?! But whatever, she's white. I can't expect her to understand what an Asian person would do.

Then I recorded whatever was left of the class and took serious notes. At the end of class, I ran to hunt for a girl with a recorder and asked for her recording. She was nice enough to pass it to me and I got it in HQ since she recorded it from the front of the class! Love her.

After class, I wanted to go to a library to grab a textbook since I didn't want to buy it. I checked the Internet catalog and it said it was available at Robarts in the Q section. I went to Robarts and there was no Q section! So I went to ask some man-librarian and he was like,"You must've missed the section. It's there on the 13th floor." And I replied, "The shelf went from P to T. There was no Q section or R section for that matter." And he goes, "You know... you probably missed it. Maybe it was in a corner or something. It has to be there." So he proceeds to enter my textbook title into the database and search for it himself. And INDEED, the catalog did state that the book would be available at Robarts in the Q section. So he goes, "Just go up there and find it again. If you can't find it, I will quit my job. Seriously, it's up there! You missed it."

And there I thought he was just insanely rude. Geez. How can I miss an ENTIRE SECTION?! Does he think I'm blind? Or does he think that I don't know my alphabets? But anyway, I gave him the benefit of the doubt. I mean it WAS late (around 9PM), maybe I was tired and I did miss it. So I went back up and check again. NO Q SECTION. FUCK YOU. So I went back downstairs, too tired to argue with some dumbass, so I tried to walk off with Alysha without him seeing me but then he calls me back with, "Did you find it?" And I chuckled with a smile on my face and said, "No. There's no Q section." And he rolls his eyes at me and picks up the phone and calls for help... And on the phone he goes, "I have a lady here who claims there no Q section in the library. There is a Q section right?"

Long story short. There is no Q section! And he was thoroughly embarrassed from practically yelling at me because HE THOUGHT there was a Q section. It turned out to be a catalog error. The book was actually supposed to be a Gerstein. I went there the next day but didn't find it though. Seriously, I was more ticked off about the dude than the catalog error. I mean, I bet it's the fact that I'm ASIAN he thinks that I would miss an entire freaking SECTION. And I was so specific too, "One shelf said PZ and shelf bottom of it said TA." It's either he think my eyes are too small so I can't see properly OR he thinks I'm from China and I don't know how to find books. Whatever. That's what you get from rude, ignorant people who think the world of themselves. Not surprised anymore.

I also learned to play Mahjong that night. Of course, I was no good at it but it's nice that I sort of know the basics of it now. I've been dying to learn for a long time and no one has taken the time to teach me and now that I finally know, it's like I can check something off my To-Do-Before-I-Die list. Feels good.

Jan 14th

Since Candice, Melba and I stayed up talking all night the night before and went to grab breakfast at like 7AM, I was super duper tired. We went to Mcdonalds and grabbed a morning happy meal. It's a pretty good deal, I must admit. I went out with Melba, Candice and Joyce. I hope they actually like me and they're not just pretending to, that would probably drive me nuts. I lost a lot of friends throughout the years and the ones that I have lost... let's just say good riddance. And I wouldn't say that I've lost faith in friendship because only time can tell you how good a friend she/he can be. I'm still going to give everyone the best of me as a friend regardless of how many times I've got hurt.

So back on topic, despite the fact that I was tired, I still went to work AND got a haircut =). I was debating whether I should try a new place, go to GoA or Sora. GoA was the place that I've been 2-3 times? Hannah cuts my hair there and the only reason why I picked her was because she was the only one that could speak English. Any everyone on Soompi tells me how nice she is and stuff but every time I've been there, she couldn't care any less about me. I try to make conversation with her and she just likes talking to the other hairdressers more. And I ask for like hair tips and she doesn't give any. Seriously?! But I would've STILL continuously went to her if it wasn't for my last hair appointment, she wasn't available. I think her baby was in the hospital, so I was forced to try another hair salon. I walked on Bloor and just entered the closest hair salon that caught my eye- Sora. No one there freaking spoke English but everyone was SUPER polite and I just automatically felt rude for not like... bowing to them or something. It was really weird. I had this cute girl cut my hair for me. Even though we had trouble communicating, I must say she did do a fairly good job.

Maybe it was because I was tired but I didn't feel like walking very far so I called Sora to see if they were busy. They said no, and so I walked to Sora and waited for like 5-10 minutes. Not bad. The receptionist asked me if I had a preference and I said no. Probably because I did want to try someone new. I looked through the magazines for a hairstyle that I wanted. THEN. The Japanese dude in the salon came and invited me over to his chair and I was totally intimidated. I've never had a Japanese guy cut my hair before. He was so polite but he spoke minimal English. Super cute. And I showed him hairstyles that I liked and he was like, "Similar." but he looked like he wanted to say, "Those haircuts are similar. Just styled differently." When he washed my hair for me... OHMIGOSH. I LIKE DIED AND WENT TO HEAVEN. HONESTLY. HEAVEN. He was the most amazing hairwasher EVER. LOL. I wish he could wash my hair everyday. I swear I had an orgasm or something, it was absolutely amazing. And when he cut my hair, he asked quite a lot of questions to be sure I got what I wanted. I just told him that I didn't want to cut my hair TOO short, I wanted to keep the length. Then he asked me if I wanted the back like a V-shape or straight across and I said I didn't know. He laughed and I told him to decide for me because I trusted him. I did actually put a lot of trust in him. I don't know if it's because he was majorly suave to me or because he was Japanese, lol. But I just let him do whatever he wanted, haha. He dropped the comb twice. I don't know why. Nervous at my beauty? LOL who am I kidding. I was probably the ugliest girl there. I sort of wanted to sleep at the beginning because I was so tired but after his second time of dropping the comb I was fully awake. I asked for tips on how to style it, he told me I could just a curling iron but it was damage my hair. And I asked if I should dye my hair but he said no, he likes my colour, instead he would recommend highlighting it to make it 3D. Ugh. Awesomeness. I felt like he would've said a lot more things if he could communicate in English. Seriously, I'm going to learn Japanese for him... after I pass all my courses, lol. I love him so much. Anyways, the hair turned out amazing, needless to say, and I tipped him 5 bucks. It was a $25 haircut so I didn't know how much to tip but I felt 5 bucks was good since that's like 20%.

I am so going back to him again. I LOVE HIM. I LOVE HIM. I seriously think I'm in love with him. And okay, he's not THAT good-looking, he's got quite a bit of acne but something about him makes him super attractive to me. It might be his shyness? Or his attempts to speak English with me regardless of his skill? Or maybe it's because he gives really good hair washes? I wish my hair would grow super fast so I can go see him again but sadly my hair grows REALLY slowly. I'd probably have to wait a year in which he would've forgotten about me. I mean, he probably doesn't even look at faces anymore, only looks at the hair and cuts away. Maybe he'll recognize me because of my hair colour, since he did naturally comment on it himself. Wishful thinking. I know. Why do I always crush on unattainable guys? It's so painful.

Day 5 without internet

So I had to go get my teeth checked today. The dentist said everything is healing the way it should be… which is always nice to know. Then I went with my mom to take my 104-year-old grandpa to the doctor to see why he isn’t eating as much. Pffft. Doesn’t take a genius to know that old people eventually lose their appetite but I guess, just for my mom’s peace of mind, I don’t mind getting a professional’s opinion. Then afterwards we went to a pharmacy to pick up stuff. This is the ring my aunt bought that I absolutely love. The phone-quality pictures does it no justice. IT’S SERIOUSLY SO GORGEOUS!!! I don’t like rings but this one is so beautiful! But I wasn’t shameless enough to ask her for it, lol, but I think if I showed her that I really liked it, she would’ve given it to me. LOL. Yeah, my aunt is rich like that, handing out diamond rings aren’t a problem for her, *rolls eyes*. Then we headed out to have dim sum at like 12! I usually don’t like have dim sum too late into the day because it’s so busy… and the service is slow. I took a picture of the mango pudding… I don’t know how they made the fish craving. And with the rice… is frog legs!!! FROG LEGS!!! Obviously I haven’t seen enough of the world to eat frog legs but my mom tells me she’s had it plenty of times and it’s a very common food item. It’s not like something “special”.

 

Painkillers

Things get worst before they get better, right?

So my tooth is almost done swelling, so it's relatively pain-free. I still have to watch what I eat and I probably will have to, for the most part, for the rest of my life since my two front teeth are unstable now.

A couple of weeks ago, I went to watch Inception alone. That was the first time I've been to the movies alone. I didn't really want to go, I wanted to wait for a friend to free up some time to go with me. I heard it is the type of movie that you would watch to talk your hearts out after you watch it.

But I had a friend tell me that it's perfectly fine to go watch it alone. I was kind of shocked only because for me, going to the movies alone equates LONER written in huge block letters on my forehead. But... I couldn't wait any longer. No one was free. Or everyone who was free had already watched it and they wanted to watch something else with me, so I decided to just go watch it alone. IT WAS SUPER AWKWARD. I had like a group of guys beside me on the left and a group of girls on my right, and I was one seat apart from them on either side. They kept on looking at me like, "Are her friends coming?" Because you know how like... there's always a one seat gap between each group of friends at the theatre so no one has to ever sit RIGHT beside a stranger? So if I had 2 friends come, they would sit on either side of me and that means that the two groups would be sitting right beside a stranger. Get it? So they kept on looking over and I was wanted to tell them, "Geez. No one is coming! I came here alone! OKAY?!"

And beforehand, a friend was like, "Yo if you watch the movie and you don't get it, it means you're stupid. Stupid people won't understand the movie." That's her response to my, "Is it confusing?"

So I guess I was glad that I went alone, I would have no distractions from my friends and I could fully concentrate on the film.

Overall it wasn't too bad. I understood most of it, I got the overall concept but there were minor details of the film that really stumped me. I guess I'm not smart enough to understand the film as a whole. This is so different from what I'm used to watching. I get the entire concept of the movie... what happens in the middle of the movie, like their adventure plan and goal and how they are going to solve it... but there is the occasion detail that ties the whole story together that I don't really get. I asked some friends but everyone is kind of like, "It's okay. That's not important." ...........?! OKAY?!

I finished exams. Feels a little anti-climatic to me. I'm still stressed with all the home errands that I have to do... seriously, why can't things just happen the way they're supposed to happen?

I feel inclined to move to livejournal... I've been really tempted this past week. I have moved to livejournal before but it's so complicated... and they don't have all the functions that I want... but I LOVE the community there. Blogger is kind of lonely but it's so easy and convenient, it's going to be hard for me to decide. I might just stay with blogger just because livejournal, the entire layout itself, is really messy and disorganize. The last time I got livejournal, I think I made like 3 posts on it before I gave up trying to make the whole layout really sleek. BUT THE COMMUNITY ROCKS. Sigh* The tradeoffs in life. Why can't we just personalize everything? And get everything the way we want it?

HMMM... the rest of my summer... probably tidying up everything and finishing all the things that needs to be done at home before I move out. I don't think I'm going anywhere... not anywhere far anyways...

Slow Me Down

It's been a while since I've posted a blog entry. I don't know why I keep on telling myself to post something up but every time I sit down at the computer, I lose the motivation to do so.

So let's start off with Thursday. I actually don't quite remember what happened on Thursday... It was a day after exams and I think I just sat at home and watched videos and caught up with dramas. I -think- that's what I did anyways, I can't imagine what else I could've done that day.

On Friday. I went to WONDERLAND. It was CRAZY fun. Of course, I was a chicken throughout the day, but my friends practically almost dragged me on every ride. I'm so grateful they did it lol. Because even though during each ride, I felt, LITERALLY FELT, like I was heading towards death, I still found it so exhilarating at the end of every ride!!! Well, except for bumper cars and like... the Merry-Go-Round. LOL. I chickened out at the Behemoth. I knew that my Wonderland experience would not be complete without it but the MOMENT I saw how steep the roller coaster is, I just backed out. My friends did try really hard to get me on it, but I stood my ground. They told me that after I left, they rode it FOUR more times. I've got such gutsy friends. I felt kind of bad because the whole time I was pretty much like, "How long is the ride? Is it scary? Which is scarier? Do I feel that "feeling" in my stomach?" And everyone actually answered all my questions and tried to convince me to go on the all the rides. I know for sure without them, I probably wouldn't have gone on anything. It was my second time there, the first time, I went when I was 5 or something and I swore never to go back again. So THIS time I really wanted to make the most out of it because I don't know when will be the next time I go back. I don't visit Wonderland often and it's not a place I would WANT to visit often. I think to have fun at Wonderland you have to go with the right people because if you go with people who are too scared to go on rides and you, yourself, are too chicken to go on the rides as well, then you've just wasted all that money to just ENTER Wonderland and walk around and do nothing.

The food in Wonderland is so shitty expensive. A foot long hot dog is like 8 bucks, 3 of us actually split that hot dog, partially because it was expensive and also because we weren't all that hungry. When you go on all those rides, your stomach doesn't know how to feel hungry... lol. The ENTIRE day, I had a little bit of rice in the morning, 1/3 of a hot dog and at the end of the day I wasn't all that hungry after ALL that walking and running around and screaming. I also tried FUNNEL CAKE!!! It was 10 bucks, and we split it with the 4 of us. It was pretty good. If I went by myself, I'd definitely spend 10 bucks on it. I wouldn't find it a waste of money, I think the only wasteful part of getting a funnel cake for $10 is the fact that I wouldn't be able to finish it. It's not THAT big but it's the kind of stuff that's only REALLY good for the first 5 bites and then it's just gross.

Friday was a really good day for me. I had so much fun. 10 hours at Wonderland. TEN HOURS!!!

In the morning, I bussed down to Wonderland by Viva to Major Mac and then taking the 4 bus to the front of the amusement park. And the problem with me is that I assume that if I go there one way, I EXPECT to come back the same way. Little did I know that at 8PM most of the buses at Jane and Major Mac weren't running anymore! So I had to figure out some crazy route to get back to Yonge Street before ALL the buses around the area stop running.

I met up with a friend later that night as well and we talked at Mcdonalds. I shouldn't have gotten myself Frutopia and fries, I'm already on a diet so all that exercising I did during the day would've all gone to waste if I just started shoving junk food into my body again. But she needed comfort food. I don't know, when I'm sad, junk food = comfort food. LOL.

OH. I REMEMBER WHAT I DID THURSDAY. I went to the doctor and apparently... he found out why I have that gurgling noise in my throat. It's because I'm suffering from acid reflux... LOL. Strange eh? I have acid reflex. I asked the doctor, "Is it NORMAL for a female at the age of TWENTY to be experiencing heart burn?" And he's like, "Well... stress changes everything."

On Saturday I had a family dinner to attend, only to find that 1/2 my cousins didn't show up so I was bored shitless. Hmm... is it weird... to be attracted to your cousin's son? LOL. My cousin is older than me and her son is one year older than me and honestly, he's so hot. LOL. I know it's incestuous but I'm just wondering if this happens to people. See the thing is, research has suggested that the only reason siblings (likely of opposite sex) do not show an attraction towards each other is because they grew up together. When you grow up with someone, for some reason, you lose that sense of attraction. BUT. If two siblings were raised in different environments and then brought together without knowing that they're siblings, they would likely find each other very attractive because they share similar DNA and pheromes. My cousin's son, I technically should call him my nephew but I refuse to call him that because:

1. He has to call me aunt then. And that makes me sound old.

2. He's OLDER than me. Aunt's should not be younger than their nephews... that's so weird.

3. He's hot. OKAY?!

So ever since we were kids, I would just call him my cousin and I've always seen him as my cousin and I don't give him any pocket money on New Years or anything neither does he expect any from me. LOL. Ugh. Why am I even talking about this? This is so gross.

Anyways. Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor's again and then I have volunteering... I sort of made plans with a friend to go to the OSC but I don't know if I want to go now. I'm kind of lazy. I'll think about it and text her tonight I guess.

What else is new? Oh. School. What am I going to do? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?! Okay. I figured out my problem I think. My problem is that I'm in too much of a rush to finish school. I refuse to slow down and assess my situation. Every time I fail, I say to myself, "I didn't study hard enough. Study harder next time." And that's the end of it. I charge towards the finish line, not really caring about all the rocks and obstacles in between. I thought I would be completely fine falling down, getting hurt, scrapes and bruises and all as long as I make it to the finish line. It doesn't matter how I get there, as long as I get there. But I never really thought, what if because of all these cuts and bruises, I don't make it to the finish line. What if it's better to stop running and to just walk for a minute or two and start pacing myself again? What if it's actually better to stop charging at the finish line and look at the path I'm running on and SEE who my other competitors are, and SEE what they're doing, and LOOK at where I am in the race? I think everything has happened so fast and I feel like if I don't stop and think now, before I know it, I'll be standing on stage to get my Bachelors degree but I won't have the marks to pursue further education.

So right now. I'm giving myself a second chance. I have a week to prepare myself for the second chance that I'm giving myself. I've taken the time to slow down and think about why I'm not studying hard enough and why I can't concentrate.

This week has been so crazy. I've made plans for this entire week and the next. This is the perfect time to put my plan to the test =D *fingers cross* I hope it works.

My thoughts on G20:

There's no real cause anymore, just riots and idiots downtown making a mess and then asking the government to clean it up using our tax dollars. Geniuses.

Crazy day!!!

So I woke up this morning with the thought, "Shit. Do I -have- to go to court today?!" And I was running through all the days of the week of when I can go and I realized that if I don't go today, it would have to be sometime next week and I just don't want to wait that long.

So I go there and it's totally packed! Why are there so many people in trouble with the law??? Geez. So I go there and it's one of those "grab a number and wait in line" kind of things. So there were like 5 options for grabbing a number:
1. Payment
2. Reopening a case/appeals
3. Court date
4. ----
5. ----

And I had no idea which one to grab??? I don't remember option 4/5 but I knew for sure those ones didn't apply to me. So I just grabbed a number for the first three options, lol and waited for them to call my number. Then when it was finally my turn to go in, the guy was actually really nice, and I asked them if I was going to get a criminal record and he laughed at me! And he's like, "You didn't do anything in the criminal code of conduct." And I was like, "Okay... " Whatever that means. And he was like, "If I gave you a parking ticket, is that going to go on your criminal record?" And I was like, "WTF?! You're testing me now?! How the hell am I supposed to know????" But I guessed and I was like, "Uhh... yes?" And he laughed again. And then he gives me this speech about what I can violate and what I can't. Nice. I, personally, just wanted to get out of there. And after I left, he's like, "You're probably one of those people who work yourself up over everything." Pfffft. Okay. Thanks. He was still a judge so I couldn't be like, "Dude, you met me for like 5 minutes. Don't judge me even though you're a judge." LOL. So I just smiled and waited in line again.

I left the place at 10:40.

Then I had to Viva down to see my friend and we grabbed lunch together. I miss her. It's so easy being friends with her. No drama, no hidden messages, no complications. Just really good friends, at least, from my perspective anyway. After lunch, I had to bus down to my lecture. GAH.

Totally sucked. By the third hour, I wasn't even listening anymore, all I heard was, "Yellow... blue... green... red... yellow... blue... green... and by the way, cyan isn't a real colour." Just for your information, we were learning the visual system.

Then after class I went to my friend's place because she wanted me to check out her condo. LOL. It was actually really really really nice, I was so jealous and she was being this ungrateful bitch going, "Yo man... my parents should've gotten me a bigger place." I knew she was just kidding though. We get along and I'm glad we understand each other but sometimes I feel like she's got something to hide. But then again, don't we all?

And a not-so-grande finale...

This post is so long overdue. I've had so much to say but didn't have the time to actually sit down and write it all out. The past two weeks went by like a blur, a bad one though. There would've been so many things I would've done differently. Actually, maybe not even just the last two weeks, more like the last two years. But again, I can't deal with regret so I just try not to think about it.

My nail has almost healed! That's good news. It's actually growing back a lot faster than expected, maybe it's an automatic mechanism? I have been eating a lot of proteins to get it growing again but for the most part, it's healed pretty nicely now.

Science Rendezvous is over. I don't know what to think about it. Deep down, I actually don't know because for the most time I was just at Rube Goldberg. But on a superficial level, I think it actually went pretty nicely. The theme was fulfilled and we all had fun building it so whatever. The busking I thought went pretty nicely too. I heard the Non-Newtonian pool and Volcano did work for the first half of the day and so for such bad planning on our parts, it worked out as well as it could've. I have to be honest that it rained, making it easier to make excuses for our lacking attractions, lol. I don't know if I want to come back next year. The only reason I think I would come back is because I know I can do a way better job since I pretty much learned everything we weren't supposed to do.

Yesterday I spent the entire day doing nothing. I woke up at 11:30, which I think was pretty early considering how much I slept for the past two weeks. I guess I actually can't sleep past 12. I just caught up in my Korean dramas for the entire day and that's about it. I didn't even do anything on my To-Do list. I wish my life was like a Korean drama. I think I've say that some time before. They always have such sweet happy endings. And although some of them have really cheesy love story lines, I think some of them are so PERFECT!!!!! Watching Personal Preference and Cinderella's Sister made me realize how much I don't understand love. I don't understand people who can't sleep because of it. I don't understand how it makes people drive at 200km/h. LOL. It's either 1. I have just forgotten what it's like to really like someone or 2. I've never really liked someone that much to begin with.

There are always some scenes that I never get bored of. I never get bored of the scenes where the guy gets jealous at the girl for talking to another guy. LOL. I'm so lame. And I never get bored of those scenes where the girl walks away and the guy pulls her back and kisses her. LMAO. AGAIN. I KNOW. I'M SO LAME.

Right now I'm volunteering at the doctor's office and guess who happens to also volunteer here? FRED. Yo. Like what a coincidence! And today I just had to prep a 2 year old and she knew she was getting a needle so she wouldn't stop crying and she wouldn't go on the weighing machine and she was just loud and annoying! I HATE KIDS! Why do they cry so much... geez... there are so many other horrible things in life that you're going to have to face so get used to it!!!!!

Oh and last week we celebrated Jen's birthday! Well, sorta... we went to Hmart and then Demetres. Both times Sherry and I tried to surprise her but failed so miserably. I'm just a bad liar, I need to practice more. But the thing is, I don't even think I'm that bad of a liar, you can only tell I'm lying if you suspect it. If you don't think I'll lie about something, usually you'll just pass off my "smile" as a stephanie-thing. You know?

Today I had BCH210. I already feel like shit. I don't want to learn anything. LOL. And I hate the professor, I know she tries hard to make jokes and stuff but no, they just suck.

I can't wait to go home today and just rest. I'm so tired of everything already. And the thing is, I'm so glad I'm going HOME and not like a place downtown. I really don't want to move out in September. Well, the thought of it right now just kind of scares me. What if second year repeats itself??? What am I going to do??? I think if second-year repeats itself, it's shows that there's something wrong with me and not others. And I'm always afraid of being the problem of every situation. Ugh... seriously. I'm so scared for September.

My brother might be staying in Toronto for university, I think I might've mentioned that somewhere already. I don't know if it's a good thing. I really want him to go far away for post secondary education, not because I don't him anywhere near me, lol, but because I want him to be independent and learn what the real world is like. He's so sheltered, he's so used to getting money from my parents, he's so used to not doing anything at home or anywhere, he's not used to not being nagged. I think for him to leave is a good thing. It'll force him to learn that the world doesn't orbit around him, not everyone is going to give a damn about him and yes, it IS UNFAIR SO LIVE WITH IT!

Okay. I don't know what to say. This post is kind of random and all over the place. Obviously, I didn't plan this one out nicely, I just splurged. I want a real summer. I want a real vacation. Hopefully, I'll get one soon so I can get everyone souvenirs!!! And take lots of pictures!!! And tell stories!!! AND SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD!!! I dream of that day...

Science and Haircut

I just got my haircut last Friday from Sora. I haven't been there before, I thought it was a Korean salon but it was actually Japanese... I find that the Chinese, Korean and Japanese hairstylists all have similar hair-cutting techniques. I've never been to a white place before so I don't know what it's like, but I'm sort of afraid to go since Asians' facial structures are different in many ways to Caucasian people. It's sort of like makeup, you know? If any Asian has ever let a white person put makeup on them, they would know exactly what I mean.

Even though I haven't been to this place before, I'd have to say that she did a pretty darn good job considering the fact that we couldn't communicate. Ugh... I was so afraid she was going to cut it short again or give me bangs. LOL!!! I'm never touching bangs again.

I've been really busy with Science Rendezvous. I'm kind of annoyed at this whole situation because I live so far and I actually have to waste so much money commuting down there and do all this crap and I'm not even getting any proper acknowledgment. Sighsighsigh. I'm kind of used to that anyways. I guess I'll get over it eventually.

Yesterday I was subwaying home at 10PM and this high school couple came in after a few stops and sat down right in front of my and like MAJOR PDA-ed. LIKE... REALLY?! And she was giving him a hickey on his neck right in front of me and they were experimenting kissing techniques. REALLY?! HONESTLY?! And they were so loud about it. Geez, people, stop flaunting your love in front of everyone, it's disturbing. But I guess high school kids tend to feel the need to express their love in front of everyone.

And then when I was on the Viva, there was another couple, I'm thinking they're in high school too, they looked really cool. LOL. Like the guy was kind of punky, since he had all this hair spiked up and the girl reminded me of Jessica Biel and they were just super cute together.

I'm catching up on my Korean dramas walking away, Person B runs away them, but Person A will still get away. Uh... either 1. Person A has super powers. 2. Person B needs to go get some exercise.

The drama isn't bad. I like the theme and all. There are a couple of things that annoy me:
1. Eun Jo needs to go see a therapist and learn how to smile.
2. Eun Jo and Ki Hoon need to go see a therapist together to learn how to communicate.
3. Hyo Sun needs to see a surgeon to remove all the plastic from her face.
4. Jung Woo needs to find a new hobby and stop following Eun Jo everywhere she goes.

That's about it. I think. Jung Woo is insanely hot. Taecyeon <3>

Yesterday was a LONG day.

So yesterday, I woke up at 6AM and just thought, "SHIT. I was supposed to wake up 3 hours ago to study." And since I live at home now, it takes 2 hours to get downtown. So I quickly got ready and ate something and hopped onto VIVA.

I was so tired that I couldn't even cram on the subway.

I didn't have enough time for the exam, so I just quickly bubbled in the last 10 questions on multiple choice. LOL. After that I had meetings for Science Rendezvous until 3:30.

I quickly ran over to Tartu to hand in my application form ONLY to bump into a friend on the way. And I haven't seen in a long time so we had a short conversation and before I knew it, it was already 3:54!!!!! And I ran over to Tartu and got there EXACTLY at 4. And the office was already closed. Ugh... thank goodness Jen was around, so I gave it to her to hand in for me today.

Then I had to rush over back to the apartment to meet up with Xinyue, the girl who I'm assigning my room to, to give her the keys. OH MY FUCKING GOD. I HAVE TO TELL YOU.

So when I got up to the apartment, I realized that they added a lock to the front door. So I was like, "WTF?! CAN YOU DO THAT?!" But because Xinyue told Ring that she was coming that day, they left the second lock unlocked. So I went in and I found that my BEDROOM WAS OPEN!!!!! So a gazillion thoughts went into my head:

1. HOW THE FUCK DID THEY OPEN IT?! I locked the door when I left and they don't have keys to my bedroom.
2. WHYYYY DID THEY OPEN IT?! Sure, I don't live there anymore, but I don't officially move out until April 15th, they can't just walk into my room without permission!!!!!
3. WHY IS EVISON'S BED IN MY ROOM?! Yeah that's right, when I walked into the room, Evison moved his bed in there with some stuff. LIKE. WHAT THE FUCK?!

And obviously, Xinyue was kind of like, "Errr... is this your stuff? What's going on?" And clearly, I had no idea what was going on. So I told her to talk to them because obviously I wasn't going to do it. Seriously, these guys are so stupid and fucking retarded. But anyways, I gave her the keys and asked her to inspect the room to make sure that she was okay with the condition and there were no damages to it. And then I moved my shoe rack out of the place.

I was late for volunteering at 5 because to get there in time I would have to hop onto the subway exactly at 4. It was already like 4:30. And I was thinking of just throwing my shoerack at Jen's place because it was so damn heavy. But then I thought about how Jen finishes her exams today, and she'd probably go home after, then I don't know when I'd go pick it up since I don't know when she'd be downtown again. So in the midst of rushing to volunteer and carrying this frigging shoerack, I just opted to carry the thing on the subway to the volunteer place. I looked like such a hobo on the TTC, it honestly looked like I picked up the shoerack from a junkyard, threw it into a garbage bag and now I'm dragging it back to my shack. LOL.

After volunteering, I had to drag it onto the TTC, Viva Purple then Viva Blue. And when my dad saw it today, he was like, "Oh... why did you take it home? You should've just thrown it away." And I just thought... UGH... YOU COULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME THAT BEFORE?!

But honestly, it's perfectly new shoerack, I don't know why I would throw it away. LOL.

Sigh. I wish I could sue those damn guys for trespassing without permission. But whatever. It's over with. I agree with Sherry that I should've done something really bad to them before I left. Sigh.

STUDYING WEEK.

April 8th 2010

2:52AM
So... nothing went according to plan. Figures. Nothing in my life goes according to plan so this is nothing new. I'm so tired at the moment. But I feel like I have to get something done or I'll feel really useless. Jen is here right now with me too. Poor her. She has an exam in like 6 hours. SIGH*
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April 7th 2010
-finished writing 80% of essay
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April 6th 2010
-summarized 3 articles for PSY299
-left at 8AM after registering for summer courses on ROSI
-showered
-came home at 10 and slept until 1
-needed to go to Robarts to finish essay
-Jen came around 7:30-ish with food
-went home to grab STUDENT CARD at 10
-came back and stayed until 4

2:26PM
I just suddenly really miss my mom. LOL. I KNOW!!! WHAT A BABY!!! I think when I feel really stressed, I just think of my mom because my brain shuts down and I can't think of anything else except for the fact that I want to go home. And when I think of home, I think of my mom and good food. LOL. I really want something good to eat. I'm so afraid of gaining weight. I think stress in general just makes me gain weight because of those crazy hormones that are released that lead to fat storage. Ugh...

My goal is to finish summarizing all the articles by 4PM, 5PM latest. Then I can spend 6 hours putting the rest together. And afterward, spend that last 30 minutes to proofread everything. I also want to finish up my last critique. I'll listen to it, take some notes and just finish it up tonight as well. My goal is probably to finish it around 2-3AM. I would probably take a break then to go grab some coffee or tea? Something to keep me up for the rest of the night to finish up listening to all my ANA301 lectures. After I'm done those, which will probably be sometime tomorrow afternoon, I'll go home to eat, shower and then sleep.

5:00PM
I JUST finished taking notes on all the articles. I have to get cracking on my essay now. But I'M HUNGRY. I sort of have a feeling that if I leave to get food, I'm going to lose my concentration.
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April 5th 2010
-went to Robarts library at 8PM
-Jen came at 10?
-went out to eat at 2AM-ish

Early 20th.

I celebrated my 20th birthday today with my two very good friends. Yeah, it's a little early, but if I don't do it now, I'd have to celebrate my birthday late, and that's... a bad thing people say.

I have lost a lot of faith in friends but these two are the two people I can say will not judge me, will always be there for me, and will always be my friend. I can't say we'll actually be friends forever, but I know they're just good people in general, so it leads me to believe that they won't just pack their bags and leave. Or be the biggest bitches in the world. I mean, one of them thinks she gave birth to a penguin and the other one just doesn't think at all. So... <3. They are totally my kind of people!!! LOL. Small birthday but I had so much fun. I don't think I've eaten so much meat before!!! I was really stuffing my mouth with beef, lamb and fish. The chicken was really good, I don't know why I didn't order more of that. I didn't like the mushrooms... they were kind of random and Sherry decided to order red and green pepper which was sort of... weird. LOL. And she REFUSED to eat any sushi because it would make her full and hence she wouldn't be able to eat her money's worth of meat. LOL. What a carnivore. There was also this waiter with some crazy-ass smile. I don't think I've ever seen anyone smile like that before!!! All the muscles on his face moved when he smiled and it was such a forced smile. I can't explain it. It was just creepy. BOTH Jen and I agreed that it was creepy and we told Sherry about it and when she finally saw the smile she was like, "Oh. I like it." *headdesk*. Sometimes I wonder how we get along considering how our opinions on EVERYTHING vastly differ by ends of a spectrum. But the service at Chakos is AMAZING. Everything you order comes out so promptly, you don't have to wait at all. I love them mango pudding and ice cream. I like how they're pretty generous with their desserts because usually when you order ice cream at AYCE places, they give you this tiny teaspoon. And all the guys who work there seemed pretty nice, so I'd definitely go back to that place again. Afterward we had nothing to do so we just drove to Silvercity's parking lot and sat there and talked. Sherry also wanted to go to Shopper's and Jen needed a bathroom so we walked over to the next plaza which had both so "TWO BIRDS WITH ONE STONE". I was planning to drive Jen to Finch just because it was so late already but then she said Jack would come pick her up! So I made it my mission to GIVE HIM THE DIRECTIONS to get here. He's a pretty cool guy, I guess. He doesn't seem like the type to say some of the stuff to Jen's been telling us but I guess they don't have that Chinese saying for no reason, “知人口面，不知心”。I hope I typed that right. LOL. Wow. I'm glad I got to celebrate my birthday today. I needed something fun before exams man. I'll upload pictures soon =).

SO PROUD. Sorta.

Lie, cheat, steal. Whatever you call it.

Yesterday Evison asked me to pay him for the internet fees for March, in which the bill arrived, and April's as well. Of course, April's bill hasn't come yet but he wanted me to give it to him ahead of time and I don't know what I was thinking about I did it anyways.

After my shower, I thought to myself, "Why do I have to give him internet fees ahead of time?" I mean, the bill for April will come at the END of April, so my new roommate will have to handle it. If anything, I'll just split half of it with my new roommate since I'm staying until April 15.

So I just thought, "Hey, since I already paid the bill for the month of April. I should just ask my new roommate for half of it back." But then I thought, "Why do I have to do this? Protocol-ly speaking, the bill doesn't come until END of April and by then my name is off the contract, so if anything, my new roommate should be responsible for April's internet fee and I pay her back my portion of it since I'm staying until April 15th."

So I worked up the courage and went back to Evison and asked for it back. LOL. And he was like, "It's still 15 bucks. Just have the new roommate give you half of it back."

And I was like, "That's not the point. If you're going to follow everything by the books, obviously, you shouldn't be taking my money early."

And he just kept on saying, "It's just $15. It's just $15." Like WTF?!

So I said, "I already gave my portion to my new roommate. So she should pay you when the time comes." WHICH IS A LIE.

And he gave me my money back. *SMILES REALLY BRIGHTLY* I'm so proud of myself.

Did I tell you I lost 3 USB drives? Yeah, not proud of that. And on there, I probably have some very important documents!!! SIGHSIGHSIGH.

Please, God. Have someone please return it.