This post is so long overdue. I've had so much to say but didn't have the time to actually sit down and write it all out. The past two weeks went by like a blur, a bad one though. There would've been so many things I would've done differently. Actually, maybe not even just the last two weeks, more like the last two years. But again, I can't deal with regret so I just try not to think about it.
My nail has almost healed! That's good news. It's actually growing back a lot faster than expected, maybe it's an automatic mechanism? I have been eating a lot of proteins to get it growing again but for the most part, it's healed pretty nicely now.
Science Rendezvous is over. I don't know what to think about it. Deep down, I actually don't know because for the most time I was just at Rube Goldberg. But on a superficial level, I think it actually went pretty nicely. The theme was fulfilled and we all had fun building it so whatever. The busking I thought went pretty nicely too. I heard the Non-Newtonian pool and Volcano did work for the first half of the day and so for such bad planning on our parts, it worked out as well as it could've. I have to be honest that it rained, making it easier to make excuses for our lacking attractions, lol. I don't know if I want to come back next year. The only reason I think I would come back is because I know I can do a way better job since I pretty much learned everything we weren't supposed to do.
Yesterday I spent the entire day doing nothing. I woke up at 11:30, which I think was pretty early considering how much I slept for the past two weeks. I guess I actually can't sleep past 12. I just caught up in my Korean dramas for the entire day and that's about it. I didn't even do anything on my To-Do list. I wish my life was like a Korean drama. I think I've say that some time before. They always have such sweet happy endings. And although some of them have really cheesy love story lines, I think some of them are so PERFECT!!!!! Watching Personal Preference and Cinderella's Sister made me realize how much I don't understand love. I don't understand people who can't sleep because of it. I don't understand how it makes people drive at 200km/h. LOL. It's either 1. I have just forgotten what it's like to really like someone or 2. I've never really liked someone that much to begin with.
There are always some scenes that I never get bored of. I never get bored of the scenes where the guy gets jealous at the girl for talking to another guy. LOL. I'm so lame. And I never get bored of those scenes where the girl walks away and the guy pulls her back and kisses her. LMAO. AGAIN. I KNOW. I'M SO LAME.
Right now I'm volunteering at the doctor's office and guess who happens to also volunteer here? FRED. Yo. Like what a coincidence! And today I just had to prep a 2 year old and she knew she was getting a needle so she wouldn't stop crying and she wouldn't go on the weighing machine and she was just loud and annoying! I HATE KIDS! Why do they cry so much... geez... there are so many other horrible things in life that you're going to have to face so get used to it!!!!!
Oh and last week we celebrated Jen's birthday! Well, sorta... we went to Hmart and then Demetres. Both times Sherry and I tried to surprise her but failed so miserably. I'm just a bad liar, I need to practice more. But the thing is, I don't even think I'm that bad of a liar, you can only tell I'm lying if you suspect it. If you don't think I'll lie about something, usually you'll just pass off my "smile" as a stephanie-thing. You know?
Today I had BCH210. I already feel like shit. I don't want to learn anything. LOL. And I hate the professor, I know she tries hard to make jokes and stuff but no, they just suck.
I can't wait to go home today and just rest. I'm so tired of everything already. And the thing is, I'm so glad I'm going HOME and not like a place downtown. I really don't want to move out in September. Well, the thought of it right now just kind of scares me. What if second year repeats itself??? What am I going to do??? I think if second-year repeats itself, it's shows that there's something wrong with me and not others. And I'm always afraid of being the problem of every situation. Ugh... seriously. I'm so scared for September.
My brother might be staying in Toronto for university, I think I might've mentioned that somewhere already. I don't know if it's a good thing. I really want him to go far away for post secondary education, not because I don't him anywhere near me, lol, but because I want him to be independent and learn what the real world is like. He's so sheltered, he's so used to getting money from my parents, he's so used to not doing anything at home or anywhere, he's not used to not being nagged. I think for him to leave is a good thing. It'll force him to learn that the world doesn't orbit around him, not everyone is going to give a damn about him and yes, it IS UNFAIR SO LIVE WITH IT!
Okay. I don't know what to say. This post is kind of random and all over the place. Obviously, I didn't plan this one out nicely, I just splurged. I want a real summer. I want a real vacation. Hopefully, I'll get one soon so I can get everyone souvenirs!!! And take lots of pictures!!! And tell stories!!! AND SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD!!! I dream of that day...
My nail has almost healed! That's good news. It's actually growing back a lot faster than expected, maybe it's an automatic mechanism? I have been eating a lot of proteins to get it growing again but for the most part, it's healed pretty nicely now.
Science Rendezvous is over. I don't know what to think about it. Deep down, I actually don't know because for the most time I was just at Rube Goldberg. But on a superficial level, I think it actually went pretty nicely. The theme was fulfilled and we all had fun building it so whatever. The busking I thought went pretty nicely too. I heard the Non-Newtonian pool and Volcano did work for the first half of the day and so for such bad planning on our parts, it worked out as well as it could've. I have to be honest that it rained, making it easier to make excuses for our lacking attractions, lol. I don't know if I want to come back next year. The only reason I think I would come back is because I know I can do a way better job since I pretty much learned everything we weren't supposed to do.
Yesterday I spent the entire day doing nothing. I woke up at 11:30, which I think was pretty early considering how much I slept for the past two weeks. I guess I actually can't sleep past 12. I just caught up in my Korean dramas for the entire day and that's about it. I didn't even do anything on my To-Do list. I wish my life was like a Korean drama. I think I've say that some time before. They always have such sweet happy endings. And although some of them have really cheesy love story lines, I think some of them are so PERFECT!!!!! Watching Personal Preference and Cinderella's Sister made me realize how much I don't understand love. I don't understand people who can't sleep because of it. I don't understand how it makes people drive at 200km/h. LOL. It's either 1. I have just forgotten what it's like to really like someone or 2. I've never really liked someone that much to begin with.
There are always some scenes that I never get bored of. I never get bored of the scenes where the guy gets jealous at the girl for talking to another guy. LOL. I'm so lame. And I never get bored of those scenes where the girl walks away and the guy pulls her back and kisses her. LMAO. AGAIN. I KNOW. I'M SO LAME.
Right now I'm volunteering at the doctor's office and guess who happens to also volunteer here? FRED. Yo. Like what a coincidence! And today I just had to prep a 2 year old and she knew she was getting a needle so she wouldn't stop crying and she wouldn't go on the weighing machine and she was just loud and annoying! I HATE KIDS! Why do they cry so much... geez... there are so many other horrible things in life that you're going to have to face so get used to it!!!!!
Oh and last week we celebrated Jen's birthday! Well, sorta... we went to Hmart and then Demetres. Both times Sherry and I tried to surprise her but failed so miserably. I'm just a bad liar, I need to practice more. But the thing is, I don't even think I'm that bad of a liar, you can only tell I'm lying if you suspect it. If you don't think I'll lie about something, usually you'll just pass off my "smile" as a stephanie-thing. You know?
Today I had BCH210. I already feel like shit. I don't want to learn anything. LOL. And I hate the professor, I know she tries hard to make jokes and stuff but no, they just suck.
I can't wait to go home today and just rest. I'm so tired of everything already. And the thing is, I'm so glad I'm going HOME and not like a place downtown. I really don't want to move out in September. Well, the thought of it right now just kind of scares me. What if second year repeats itself??? What am I going to do??? I think if second-year repeats itself, it's shows that there's something wrong with me and not others. And I'm always afraid of being the problem of every situation. Ugh... seriously. I'm so scared for September.
My brother might be staying in Toronto for university, I think I might've mentioned that somewhere already. I don't know if it's a good thing. I really want him to go far away for post secondary education, not because I don't him anywhere near me, lol, but because I want him to be independent and learn what the real world is like. He's so sheltered, he's so used to getting money from my parents, he's so used to not doing anything at home or anywhere, he's not used to not being nagged. I think for him to leave is a good thing. It'll force him to learn that the world doesn't orbit around him, not everyone is going to give a damn about him and yes, it IS UNFAIR SO LIVE WITH IT!
Okay. I don't know what to say. This post is kind of random and all over the place. Obviously, I didn't plan this one out nicely, I just splurged. I want a real summer. I want a real vacation. Hopefully, I'll get one soon so I can get everyone souvenirs!!! And take lots of pictures!!! And tell stories!!! AND SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD!!! I dream of that day...
