I think last year and this year has proven to me that I can fail even if I try not to. In high school, I always thought that I would have to TRY to fail but of course, that was high school, not the real world.
Sherry told me that she wants to work to live whereas I would want to live to work. And for the longest time I agreed with what she said because I really want a job that I like and actually be able to wake up every morning and say, "Yay! Work!" LOL. But for Sherry, she would OBVIOUSLY prefer a job that she'll enjoy but at the end of the day, she just wants a job that can put food on the table.
But now that I think about it, I think I actually want to work to live not live to work. Even though I REALLY REALLY REALLY want a job that I'll enjoy, I think I put a lot of things ahead of career. My family, friends, happiness, seeing the world, experiencing new things... Sometimes I feel like I won't be able to get all of that if I'm so dedicated to my job or my work.
University of Toronto has changed my perception to EVERYTHING. And I guess in some way for the better. I want to do well, I will still aim for that 4.0 every year, but along the way, I want to make friends, be a good friend, experience things and just really live.
I remember first year, I SERIOUSLY considered just throwing myself in front of a bus because I couldn't take it anymore and I felt like such a useless person. I wasn't suffering from depression, I was just stressed. But marks and a high GPA does not define who I am as a person. Marks get you really far in life, without them, you would probably be closing a lot of doors. However, I'd rather be self-fulfilled and happy with limited opportunities than to be a person with a high GPA with a lot of greatness ahead of me but just be a completely empty person.
I don't want to be a millionaire, I would like to live comfortably without having to worry about my bills or if I can get my kids to university, but I don't need all the money in the world. And if I did have a lot of money in the world, I'd probably end up giving so much of it away to friends, family and charity.
I remember this one time, the jackpot was $20 million for 6/49, and a friend asked me what I would do with that money if I won. Honestly, I would probably give away $1 million to each of my close friends because I think I only have about 5-6 close friends. I would donate $6-7 million to charity. And most people would think, "OH MY GOD, you're giving it all away!"
No. I would still have around $9 million or so. I would keep $2 million and give the rest to my mom. And maybe give something to my brother, lol, I can't forget him. As much as I rant about how much I just want to sleep for the rest of my life and do nothing, deep down, I don't want that. lol. My entire life I've been so busy and stressed, and sometimes I say things like that because I just WANT A DAMN BREAK FROM IT ALL. But after a month of nothing, I would probably want to head out to the battlefield again and stress myself out all over again. Just because I won the lottery, I would never quit my job, unless of course, I was like 50, then I might just want an early retirement.
You guys may think that I'm probably just "making this up" and if I really did win $20 million, I wouldn't be handing out money like that. Well, I'm saying this as if I were an adult and I was a doctor whose living comfortably. I mean, if I won the money NOW, I'd probably just give it all to my parents. LOL. And of course, if I were a hobo and I won that money, I'd obviously use it on myself first since I would probably not have any friends to give the money to, lol. And if I DID have friends, I would probably have borrowed so much money from them, so I would use that money to pay off my debts WITH interest. LOL. But bottom line is, I don't see why any ONE person would need $20 million. There are people out there who need it more than you do. And it's not even about fairness, the fact that someone is worst off than you and you're the one who’s masked in the luxury of the money and they're suffering, it's about humanity, helping those who NEED it more than you do, doing the RIGHT thing, being a HUMAN being who has FEELINGS and EMOTIONS and has the ability to feel SYMPATHY.
I guess I'm writing this just because I feel like the majority of the people are warped in another mindset. It would be wrong for me to say, "Just be a good person, that's all you need in life. Don't worry about your marks, don't worry about your job. Don't worry at all! Just be a good person."
You should be strong, smart and knowledgeable of the world, fight for what you believe in, love your friends and family, be happy, live your life and live it as a good person.
But of course, if everyone was like that in this world, there wouldn't be any wars or fights. And the government wouldn't need to spend millions of dollars every year on research for nuclear weapons instead of putting it towards cancer research. Ugh... can you believe we're wasting money on FINDING ways to kill each other? I think that's so ridiculous. Like pollution, chemicals, viruses, and all the radiation out there isn't enough to kill us, we need to develop more ways to a faster death.
Sherry told me that she wants to work to live whereas I would want to live to work. And for the longest time I agreed with what she said because I really want a job that I like and actually be able to wake up every morning and say, "Yay! Work!" LOL. But for Sherry, she would OBVIOUSLY prefer a job that she'll enjoy but at the end of the day, she just wants a job that can put food on the table.
But now that I think about it, I think I actually want to work to live not live to work. Even though I REALLY REALLY REALLY want a job that I'll enjoy, I think I put a lot of things ahead of career. My family, friends, happiness, seeing the world, experiencing new things... Sometimes I feel like I won't be able to get all of that if I'm so dedicated to my job or my work.
University of Toronto has changed my perception to EVERYTHING. And I guess in some way for the better. I want to do well, I will still aim for that 4.0 every year, but along the way, I want to make friends, be a good friend, experience things and just really live.
I remember first year, I SERIOUSLY considered just throwing myself in front of a bus because I couldn't take it anymore and I felt like such a useless person. I wasn't suffering from depression, I was just stressed. But marks and a high GPA does not define who I am as a person. Marks get you really far in life, without them, you would probably be closing a lot of doors. However, I'd rather be self-fulfilled and happy with limited opportunities than to be a person with a high GPA with a lot of greatness ahead of me but just be a completely empty person.
I don't want to be a millionaire, I would like to live comfortably without having to worry about my bills or if I can get my kids to university, but I don't need all the money in the world. And if I did have a lot of money in the world, I'd probably end up giving so much of it away to friends, family and charity.
I remember this one time, the jackpot was $20 million for 6/49, and a friend asked me what I would do with that money if I won. Honestly, I would probably give away $1 million to each of my close friends because I think I only have about 5-6 close friends. I would donate $6-7 million to charity. And most people would think, "OH MY GOD, you're giving it all away!"
No. I would still have around $9 million or so. I would keep $2 million and give the rest to my mom. And maybe give something to my brother, lol, I can't forget him. As much as I rant about how much I just want to sleep for the rest of my life and do nothing, deep down, I don't want that. lol. My entire life I've been so busy and stressed, and sometimes I say things like that because I just WANT A DAMN BREAK FROM IT ALL. But after a month of nothing, I would probably want to head out to the battlefield again and stress myself out all over again. Just because I won the lottery, I would never quit my job, unless of course, I was like 50, then I might just want an early retirement.
You guys may think that I'm probably just "making this up" and if I really did win $20 million, I wouldn't be handing out money like that. Well, I'm saying this as if I were an adult and I was a doctor whose living comfortably. I mean, if I won the money NOW, I'd probably just give it all to my parents. LOL. And of course, if I were a hobo and I won that money, I'd obviously use it on myself first since I would probably not have any friends to give the money to, lol. And if I DID have friends, I would probably have borrowed so much money from them, so I would use that money to pay off my debts WITH interest. LOL. But bottom line is, I don't see why any ONE person would need $20 million. There are people out there who need it more than you do. And it's not even about fairness, the fact that someone is worst off than you and you're the one who’s masked in the luxury of the money and they're suffering, it's about humanity, helping those who NEED it more than you do, doing the RIGHT thing, being a HUMAN being who has FEELINGS and EMOTIONS and has the ability to feel SYMPATHY.
I guess I'm writing this just because I feel like the majority of the people are warped in another mindset. It would be wrong for me to say, "Just be a good person, that's all you need in life. Don't worry about your marks, don't worry about your job. Don't worry at all! Just be a good person."
You should be strong, smart and knowledgeable of the world, fight for what you believe in, love your friends and family, be happy, live your life and live it as a good person.
But of course, if everyone was like that in this world, there wouldn't be any wars or fights. And the government wouldn't need to spend millions of dollars every year on research for nuclear weapons instead of putting it towards cancer research. Ugh... can you believe we're wasting money on FINDING ways to kill each other? I think that's so ridiculous. Like pollution, chemicals, viruses, and all the radiation out there isn't enough to kill us, we need to develop more ways to a faster death.
